1 month old

August 16.......it all began. 

September 16.....we've hit 1 month!!! 


I haven't posted like I would have wanted so I'm trying to catch up. I apologize if I ramble.

What a ride thus far!!  Ups, downs, lack of sleep, changes......but it all equals the amazement, love and awe I feel toward this child of mine.  There are nights I'm ready to crawl in a hole because I'm so sleepy and I just don't want to wake up but all it takes is looking at that precious face to make everything better.  The cooing sound he makes while he's eating or when he's full.  The grin and new laugh he has picked up this week.  The way he fixates his eyes on the windows.  His poor little baby acne that comes and goes and the cradle cap that I keep picking at.  His manly "farts and burps".....or should I say his poor GI tract.  It could be what his momma is eating so I feel bad for the little dude.  He will be so peaceful then all of a sudden burst out in a red faced, scream with his legs kicked out and his belly tight as can be.  He is one gassy baby!!!  I enjoy just staring at him quite frankly.  He's gotten bigger, his personality is slowly showing and he's one awesome little dude.  It's hard to even put into words how it feels.  He has his daddy wrapped around his tiny, long finger, Kneesa gives him kisses, and mommy is still amazed.

1) Audiology
So at the hospital the doctor came by the room (while Cam was still gone for his hearing test) and told him that he failed the test and although common, needs to be referred to an audiologist.  I sat there, stunned, as he walked out of the room.  Well 15 minutes later, in walks Cam with the nurse and I burst out into tears.  I was so upset and starting thinking of everything I might have done to have caused this hearing issue.  The nurse explained it a bit more saying he failed the right and passed the left...then they redid the test and he passed the right, failed the left.  She said it's very common in c-sec babies due to fluid.  I felt SO much more relieved after that.  Then the discharge nurse was my saving grace, she told me that she put "pass overall" because she wouldn't even consider him failing.  We still were referred and I was ready for that day to end.  I started to wonder if that's why he sleeps through Kneesa's barking and while we're out at restaurants and such.....Thank goodness the audiologist retested him via the same test done at the hospital before doing the ABR 1hr + long test.  He passed both immediately!!!   What a relief!!!!! So if anyone experiences this, please don't freak out like I did.  I truly thought I did something to cause my child to be deaf, and although it wouldn't have mattered if he was....the stress from worrying is now over!!!  

2) His first bottle
So my goal is to breastfeed until he's 1 year old...or at least have enough saved (frozen) to stop around 8 months and use the frozen until he reaches 1yr.  I feel like a feeding machine!!!  Every 3 hours I nurse him, then pump....which takes about an hour....everyday all day.  Goodness.  No wonder I'm 5 weeks postpartum and only have 3-4lb left to go to hit my pre-pregnancy weight.  I haven't worked out or dieted either!!  Well I didn't want to introduce a bottle (with breast milk) until we had to.  The books suggest 2weeks so last week I pumped a bottle for Shannon to feed him.  I have to say it felt odd not the one feeding him, but at least it gives me a bit more freedom in regards to timing out the day.  He took it well and actually eats about all 4oz....little chunky monkey!!!!

This is my last week at home.  I start rotations back next week and he goes to daycare, at 6 weeks.  Shannon wants me to take the 4 weeks off, but I'm ready for a routine and to finish up school.  I keep going back and forth on what I want.